Hey I'm not dead!

Wow I haven't updated this since like..... I can't even remember! *face palm* Aaaaaanyway as you can see I'm not dead at the moment, surprisingly. I say that because I accidental left my phone in my pant pocket and grandma decided to do the laundry. Which meant that my grandmother put my phone through the wash. My mother literally screamed at me when she got to news. I hate it though because I told grandma countless times not to put my stuff in the laundry. Of course when I told my mother this she said "YOU STILL SHOULDN'T HAVE LEFT IT IN YOUR POCKET!!!" As if I had not just told her that I was going to put my pants in the basket later on and would have taken the phone out if grandma hadn't got to them first. God sometimes I swear my parents rather have their own truth and not listen to my side of the story. So life as always is hectic. School has been....... difficult. I'm falling behind again but it seems like I just can't keep up at all, to tell you the truth I don't think I was ready for high school to begin with. I got all my Christmas shopping done in one day last weekend (personal record! The shortest it took me before was three days) and I had myself from sitting at 112 dollars to negative amount within a day. That is the fastest I've made myself broke too..... sheeeeeesh. So my grandmother has her tree up already (heck she's had it up for a week) and my sister is eager to follow suit. Of course since it's busy mom doesn't want to do it this early even if she's the kind of person that has all her Christmas shopping done by January the same year 0_0 yeah just a little crazy. It drives my band officers from cadets up the wall when I can't come to something planned months ahead becomes my mom's planned a vacation at least a year ahead. Which annoys me to no end because I missed Band Comp last year due to the fact I was in Oregon *grumbles*. Well since I'm on the topic cadets is doing well other than the fact that admin seems to have lost my corporal (spelling?) chevrons so everyone thinks I'm a LAC instead of my rank *more angry grumbling* We've got the Santa Clause parade this weekend too, where we'll be displayed on national televesion... yeah no pressure *cue freak out* Life's gotten slightly depressing. Two bullies seriously made me think of things I don't even want to say and gives me a pit in my stomach for even thinking something like that. They've been dealt with but I'm still kind of in this depression rut thing. Also I've exploded with artistic creativity, I want to do more than just writing now. I've gotten so many painting ideas but the only damn paints I have are the crappy ones in circles that have washed out colours. I want actual paints, with an actual damn canvas! And so many other ideas I've gotten. I realize that if I want to get more money begging's gonna do nothin for me, so next school year I'll have to find myself a job. However I'd like to make some money now. I want a new camera to expand my photography skills. I realize I could sell art work and dA is a place that a lot of people like my stuff but I can't scan a full sized painting (scanner's WAAAAAY to small for that) and that's the only way to sell things there. I guess I could sell stuff at a art or craft fair, that could be possible. I also want some money to make myself a flag. Yup call me crazy (which I TOTALLY am) I've designed a flag for myself, now all I need to do is make it. The idea for my flag came when I really wanted to write "______ was here" because it was a cool awesome place. But I don't like graffiti, however if I get myself a mark that I can remove right after I could take a picture of it instead! So that's where the flag comes in. Anyway I realized that in just a year I'll be getting myself a job and within two I'll get my driver's license (drivers on the road be VERY afraid). Life's going too damn fast, next thing I know I'm gonna have grandchildren! (errr highly doubt it :D) Anyway that's all I guess for now, see ya soon! D